Removing Adam

My favorite band is Lifehouse. Their lyrics echo a sentiment not of perfect love, but of making love the best you can. We are all powerful creators.

Right now, my life is absent of Adam. If I were in another postion other than my own, I would have a hard time understanding this without all of the facts. Before you make judgements because you feel you have adequate information, know that you most likely do not. Know this, if you trust me or Adam, we are making the best possible decision for us!

I am completely in love with Adam. I have never met a person so whole. He is my best friend and my deepest love. My heart aches not to be able to share my life with him right now. But the mantra that gets me through is, I can do hard things and I believe that. I know Adam is my future husband. I know that in order for me to be a better wife to him, I need to make good use of my time now to learn all that I can. I am going to work hard on me, for me because I deserve the best! I am using this separation as a time to focus my attention on what is truly important to me- going to the Temple! I lost sight of this while I was dating Adam and I am sorry for this! No regrets, because I am going there soon.

While Adam and I are apart, I will not focus on anything negative. I am committing to let my light shine and allow others the safe space to be themselves as well. I am an amazing creator! I can do anything I want because I have been given agency. But always, I will do what my Heavenly Father wants me to do. I know with 100% surety, that God is my Father and he loves me very much as his divine daughter. He has big plans for me, so I need to work hard now so I can be ready when the call goes out. I trust him fully because he knows what will make me happy now and later on into the eternities. I am so glad I have taken the time to develop my personal relationship with him. This gospel is the life I want to live, because being LDS in not just a Sunday 3 hour job. Being LDS is more a state of mind and a way of living every day. Reading my scriptures daily is something I look forward to because the pages are filled with wisdom beyond me. I love learning new things this way. Praying on my knees is a priviledge because I have knees to kneel on and I have arms to fold and a head to bow. I am so grateful for my functioning body God has given me; I won't abuse it. I live this way because making good choices in line with God's will gives me the freedom to be happy. Obedience and sacrifice bring great blessings. This is what I believe. No one can change my course. I, along with Heavenly Father, decide my path. And I choose him.

"Hanging by a Moment" by Lifehouse

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now...

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you....

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment here with you