Some People Worry

Some people worry about their hair. Others worry if anyone will notice the gap between their teeth. Some worry whether their child will wake from a coma or not. Some worry if they will have friends to sit with at lunch. What are my worries? Everything can be a stressor for me, but the key is to let things go. If there is one recurring lesson that I am learning right now, it's patience. That and to always be confident in myself. So many people are confident in me. Why? I can name a few things, but people always surprise me. And then again, I surprise myself.

One of the Many Reasons Why I Love my Mr. Twede

One of my pet peeves are people who are inconsiderate. This can range from people who won't stop talking about themselves to people who "forget" to hold open the door for me. I'm sorry, were you too busy worrying about yourself that you forgot your manners? Excuse me for living and getting in your way.

The one person who gives everyone consideration and goes beyond that by trying to understand everyone is... drum roll please, bet you'll never guess... Adam! This is one of the biggest reasons why I love my Mr. Twede. Not only is he kind, but he cares about everyone, and he is sooo not judgemental. I have many examples of how Adam best exemplifies the state of being considerate, so I shall share one of them.

Adam is constantly looking out for my well being. He is always supportive of what I want, what I need, and what I want to accomplish. For example, today Adam asked me if I wanted to start eating gluten free based on an article I sent him. I told him I didn't want to necessarily start, but I am conscious of it and I try to keep away from gluten when I can. He said, "we can do as much or as little as you want, if it will make you feel better, I'm all for it". It's the small, but profound actions on Adam's part that make him a great person and our relationship successful. Obviously it takes two people to make a relationship, but with Adam, he makes me look good.

Destiny

Do you ever feel like you are destined for something great? Like you are on the cusp of greatness?

In my post "Romancing Amy" I said, I knew I was being prepared for something great." Let me explain:

I knew I was supposed to be in SLC after I graduated in April 2009. I had an obligation to move to NC for the summer, but after that, my plans were to come to SLC. It had always been my dream to live in downtown SLC, especially the Avenues. I remember driving thru the streets as a kid and knowing that my future would intertwine with downtown. I never questioned how.

Once I moved to the Avenues in December 2009, I knew that was the place I needed to stay. I know that destiny is something we have a choice in, and in my case, it's what ultimately led me to the point where I am at now- my choices. But I cannot deny the irresistible power that appealled to me. Destiny is my friend, not my parent and ultimately, not my creator.

I know this is only the beginning of something great for me. I am not disillusioned into thinking Adam is perfect, I just know that he is perfect for me.

What I Want in a Husband

A list I made in 2009 and Adam encompasses and surpasses all of these... except #18 because I haven't put him to the test there yet...

1) Be a worthy Priesthood holder
2) Faithful
3) Trusting
4) Obedient to the Lord
5) Intimate (in thoughts and actions)
6) Prays with intensity
7) Reads and searches the Scriptures daily
8) Committed to live a life of happiness
9) Willing to influence his children's lives daily
10) Supportive of me and my goals and dreams
11) Will create a house of love
12) Knows how to sacrifice and will do so for his family and for God
13) Will honor his Baptismal and Temple Covenants
14) Will give all his love to me and never let his passion for me die
15) Willing to take me out on dates even after we have children
16) Takes me to the Temple on a regular basis
17) Likes to be active/works out
18) Likes to play card/board games
19) My family likes him
20) Someone who thinks I am gorgeous on the inside as well as the outside
21) Someone who is a bold- a risk taker
22) I want to travel with him
23) I never want our kisses to get old
24) Someone who isn't jealous of stupid things/people
25) Dedicated
26) Loyal
27) Courageous
28) Makes me want to be better
29) Truthful
30) Always makes me feel good
31) Unselfish
32) Supports our family
33) Willing to communicate everything with my effectively
34) Able to confide in me as a best friend
35) Makes good decisions
36) Able to save money effectively
37) Sees himself as I do (as handsome and intelligent)
38) Confident
39) High self-esteem
40) Loves his mom and dad
41) Has gratitude
42) Respectful

And Adam, happy three months. I can't imagine a happier, more peaceful time for me.

Remnant

Has there ever been a person you cannot rid your memory of? I believe the cause of this particular attachment is due to one of two things: either the connection you had was true love, or the connection you think you had is now a fantasy burned into your mind and you are allowing it to haunt you until you decide to act and think differently. Most of the time, the fantasy, the remnant of once was, is not better than reality. Sometimes it's hard to remember that fact in the midst of swirling emotions.